Em-Funke

“I’m happy for you guys. That’s great that you two are happy together.” Janine wasn’t happy for them. She didn’t think it was great that they were together. It broke her into pieces that would take years to heal, but she didn’t know that. All she knew was that her heart had shattered and the ones responsible were walking away together hand in hand. The boy she had liked for years and the friend she had for just as long had just told her they were going out together. She hadn’t told either of them how she felt; afraid to express how she truly felt to anyone. Now those feelings lay in a puddle of

Why must he toy with me He knows how I feel Yet he messes around Asking what I think of other girls We sit down and have meaningful talks Then he turns around and has another girl Can't he see it's hurting me He's going to lose me before he has me Can't he just see me For the amazing person I am I'm smart, pretty, and cool, or so I'm told My confidence falls when he ignores me I want to be more then just friends I want more then just that I want to know if he feels the same Can't he see that Can't he see we're meant to be Maybe we could be soulmates Maybe I'm the rebound chick Maybe I cry myself to sleep because of it Is there a way to make

The wind flows through the fields around the valley A storm is coming for the town Based on the breeze and the temperature It’s not far off Not just a storm but a battle The town won’t live through it I’m fearful for what will come The soldiers march with lightning behind them Thunder is the beat they march to Our few soldiers won't stand a chance They come and make the ground red After an hour the ground is now bleeding All the men on my side are dead I shed a tear and move on The guards won’t let my go and look at my men The grip marks on my arm flush red I walk into the new castle, alone Now more than ever I see the

Don’t fall down the rabbit hole Don’t fall down the rabbit hole Whatever you do, don’t fall into That pit of despair That black hole of grief That endless fall of self pity That chasm of doubt Don’t fall into it because once you do You can’t escape There are occasional ledges to land on Brief places of relief That will eventually crumble beneath you Then you fall right back into the melancholy

You drive me crazy You're on my mind every minute of the day You never leave I don't want you to leave You're fun and I enjoy you I give you everything I can But you give me nothing in return Please help me back I can't help but think of you You provide me with so much yet not what I want You only help me mentally That's also where you hurt me the most I want to know you better But you push me away Can't we be together in harmony Or will you continue to hurt

I don't show people my sadness So I cry when no one is around I put my makeup on perfect So it can all run down I dye my hair to be cool Only to be laughed at I wear clothes that cover me Because they'll make fun of me I can’t escape the ridicule No matter where I run or what I do It follows me everywhere i just want to be free from judgement

While I wait for the walls of depression to close in on me, I ask myself Which door should I have opened? Which wrong turn did I take? Was I wrong for coming in here in the first place? I would like the answer to any of them But I know that I can’t do anything about it How far the walls move is always different One day they are so close all I can do is curl into a ball Other days they are so far away I have to run to touch them. Most of the time though they move about an inch one way or another I’ve seen glimpses of windows Seen others enjoying their time I just sit here writing, thinking about how I could have done better

The person who cares about me the most is no one I reason I say this is because no one knows me At least not the full me I don't tell people all the things I like Because I know they wouldn't accept it I don't tell my parents about my depression Because they would want to get me help I don't tell my friends how much I want to die Because it would make them sad How can others love me when I don't even love myself How can you know the full me when I don't know the full me So I will continue to cry silent tears Tears of not accepting myself While I smile on the outside Let people think they know me That I'm not dying on the inside That I'm as ha

There once was a girl She sat on a seat by the window While everyone one else wanted to hurl She had found herself a beau There on her window was a bug She had meet him at dawn She just wanted a hug Everyone else wanted him gone Then she asked him to prom And he said yes After that she felt calm Now she needed a dress But then something happened He flew away She was stunned Her world turned grey She cried after that They tried to comfort her They think he went splat Now her life is a blur Because she no longer has him

I have meet death Every night he comes to see me He takes me away Not to the valley of death But to dance We spend the night in step We do the dance of death If I slip up he takes me If he slips he becomes human Another reaper will take his place And if we end together We stay the same He goes back to work I go home We do the same thing each night It won't end until someone messes up We may be at this for a while We don't want to mess up We enjoy the dance to much